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It is hard to get things that you want when (1) you are financially constraint; (2) there are two people that are pressing you to move because they don’t know that you are stucked; and (3) even though some persons are supportive, their help is just little and cannot devour even a percent of that discomfort that you feel.
I am struggling to look for a stable job. For the six applications I have sent, only one answered and there is a big risk that I won’t get that job.
Maybe it’s my fault. Yes. It’s all my fault. Many opportunities came but I did not entertain any of them. There are things that came, but I’ve wasted it because I am clinging to the concept that everything you get is just for your enjoyment. I forgot the golden rule: you must take care of it.
Thanks to God I am still breathing notwithstanding that my schedule of eating is erratic. I can’t sleep that well. I have dreams of confusion and disagreement. My subconscious is fighting the conscious.
Thanks to HIM that my fiancé is very supportive of me and everyday, I can feel her love and compassion.
I think, I better get an option that is practical but in the end, will be proven really practical. Hay! Ciao for now!
